What in the....

Hello blog world!
I've been terribly frustrated lately, a lot like my dear friend Shell.

Trying to find a teaching job is about as easy as winning Vietnam...wait....we lost, yea. That's how easy it is. I'm - this close- to giving up and finding a new career. I don't know why I thought becoming a teacher would somehow be easy...hahaha. My friend Kyle knows EXACTLY what I mean when I say, I was lied to in college. I went to school thinking it was a given that I would get a job right out of school--Teacher's are in high demand. I heard this over and over again. Well. I hate to break this to all of those people who told me that, it isn't. Teacher's are being let go, displaced, and are not retiring. I have a better chance of being eaten by a shark, not living near the ocean, than I do of getting a teaching job. I can't sub anymore. It takes too much of a toll on my teacher confidence and ego. I just can't stand not being able to walk into my own classroom with my own rules, my own things, my own...everything! I'll keep e-mailing and calling schools but, they'll keep giving me the "We don't anticipate any openings this year." Thanks to budget cuts and the economy. WHAT ARE WE COLLEGE GRADUATES SUPPOSED TO DO?!?!

Moving on from that *takes deep deep deep breath*

I'm home again, for the second day in a row. I haven't been called for a sub job today or tomorrow. Plus I had a root canal done yesterday so I'm in a LOT of pain today. Which brings me to, WHY DOES THE DENTIST COST SO MUCH!? All of these questions are really rhetorical of course...unless someone in the audience would like to answer? 1200 bucks for ONE tooth. Ugh! With dental insurance. Help!

I just keep dreaming for a different life. Something, somewhere along the way, got screwed up! This isn't where I'm supposed to be. Blogging about my life because I have no life. I feel like I need to write a book or something. Anything. I need to step out of this daily struggle to find something worthwhile to do and step into a world that doesn't make me feel so darn lost! I was meant to do great things...as is everyone...but what are those great things? I want to start on them now! I've thought about going back to get my Master's but...I have no teaching experience and no job prospects. A master's degree will probably just over-qualify me. And then I really won't get hired.

Okay. I think that's enough.

Thanks for reading :)

<3 MLE